Reflecting on Life: A Heartfelt Eulogy Turned Reminder – Insights from a Business Coach

I wrote this and put it on LinkedIn and Insta on 13th December 2022. My dad died on 26th March 2023, almost 10 months ago. I stumbled across the post and I wanted to reshare it here, as a reminder to myself. The original post follows:

Writing a Eulogy and Embracing the Present

I sat down to write my dad’s eulogy…
He’s not even dead.

Isn’t it strange that the most profound words we will ever speak about someone will likely be after they can’t hear them?

I want my dad to know now, while he’s very much alive, what I might say when he’s not.

My dad was diagnosed with lung cancer 4 years ago. In some senses, it was a relief to him because he’d been feeling like a hypochondriac. After they diagnosed him, they pulled his file. They wanted to know why the cancerous mass in his lung, which was now far too big to operate on, had managed to grow to 6.5 centimetres (which is huge).

And—in all the previous X-Rays—it was there. They had missed it. For 5 years.

Letting Go of the Past and Living in the Moment

The most senior doctor called my mum and dad in to profusely and profoundly apologise for missing it. This doctor was more than sorry or embarrassed; he was ashamed. He explained that they had already changed the protocol so that this couldn’t happen again. He also went on to explain that my dad could sue.

By the time this scene was relayed to me, it sounded like the doctor was encouraging my dad to do so—despite the fact that this would have been terrible for both the hospital and the doctor himself. I can imagine it helped the doctor alleviate his guilt, as he bravely took ultimate responsibility for this mishap.

My dad didn’t miss a beat…
“I could fight it in court! But I’d rather fight the disease, and with your help”.

My dad didn’t look back and lament or pursue litigation. This story illustrates a quality of my dad that is uncommon: he can accept and let go in the blink of an eye. My dad, in this one moment, role-modelled that the past isn’t real, and there’s no point getting stuck re-living it. Live for now!

A Moment of Connection

Although it feels important to finish this eulogy, it feels more important to call my dad in the hospital, so I’m off to do that.

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We had a 40-minute call. We are connecting now in a way we never could before. Dying, it seems, can tenderise and heal. Just as well he’s not there yet.

James O'Halloran

As a Business Coach I help Founders* and those in Career Transition unlock problems and increase self-mastery so that they are confident in their direction and leadership. Through Career and Business Coaching, I help people who want to disrupt the(ir) status quo.